Yes!
July 6th, 2021 marks my two-year anniversary of being drug-free and I wanted to share with you what makes it so awesome. Before taking that leap into giving up my substance addictions, I had my doubts. Oh, believe me, I had my doubts. Previously when I had quit Adderall or alcohol, I felt great initially, but then I quickly would fall back into old patterns and bad habits only a couple months later. I felt like I was powerless and there was no other way to live. We are humans and creators, much stronger than any substance! It took me many years to understand this, but now there is no going back.
No More Sense of Guilt or Shame
Let’s be honest, drugs are bad for you. But I think that many addicts, myself included at one point, believe that taking them is acceptable because other people are doing it or that it can’t really be doing that much harm. Each time I would quit and relapse, feelings of guilt and shame would build inside. Over the years, I had a deep realization that consuming these substances was wrong and I became increasingly paranoid and ridden with fear about what was going to happen to me. I was attracting negative energy. Getting clean banished these heavy emotions of toxic self-talk. My mind is no longer clouded with the burdens of substance abuse and my body feels lighter. I was constantly obsessing over drugs, drug, drugs, that I had forgotten what it was like to have a clear conscious. Breaking free from drugs has allowed me to improve my self-worth tremendously.
Health!
This one is major. Drugs and alcohol directly affect your body and immune system for the worse, so nixing them is like reaching the top of Mount Everest! It’s this feeling of I am unstoppable and mighty powerful. When on drugs, I was lousy; I couldn’t sit upright in my chair, I felt tired, my head hurt and I didn’t want to be doing whatever it was that I had to do - I wanted to disappear into the void of Earth. Now, two years clean, I am ready to take on the day and I congratulate myself for making all of my appointments and accomplishing all of my daily tasks. There is no way I could do this under the influence. Abstaining from drugs and alcohol has given me more energy and focus to make strides towards the right path. This is how it was always meant to be.
A Better Person
Not that drugs and alcohol made me a bad person, but they made me make bad choices. I was selfish and only cared about satisfying myself while intoxicated. Eventually, I lost all of my acquaintances. And looking back, that is not necessarily a negative thing, because I don’t think they had my best interests in mind, but the moral is that I could have been more courteous. Regardless of the situation, I believe that everyone deserves respect and I was unable to treat anyone (including myself) with the respect that they deserved, because I was too concerned with my next fix. Now, I am actually conscious and aware of my reality and how my actions affect others. I didn’t have that awareness while under the influence, and now that I do, I can be conscientious and prevent hurting others.
There are honestly no downsides to being sober. It's been a long road to get to clean, and I know that each day I am getting closer to my dreams and goals because my health has improved, I am making better choices and I feel good about myself.
If you are trying or have quit drugs and alcohol, BRAVO!!!
I am so proud of you.
You are a survivor and can tell yourself:
I ROSE.
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